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 Lately, I am getting results from this change of mine. I'm quite satisfied with how much I seem to be improving! I'm not as... shall I say, emotion-whacked as I used to be. I'm not as bothered by small things, and I notice now that I am getting a higher tolerance level for people and their stupidity. On another note, I'm really sick and tired of getting bitched at for not doing something that I don't want to do. My dad comes home from work, asking if there's anything planned for supper, and mom says "Oh yes, Ali is making hotdogs and fries and stirfry." I just LOVE how she volunteers me for stuff without asking, really. Is that all I seem t

Lately, the past couple of days, I have felt like I have been left on the ground by the footsteps of life. As I posted in my last entry, I have given up on the man I love. There is no way he could ever love me back, and It's so painful to realize it. I would rather stay cold and distant then to fall in love again... But one thing worries me, will I end up shutting him out completely to protect myself? I don't want this to be the case, but it may happen without me realizing it.. Now, my mom is being very... distant lately. All she does is go on the computer all day and play online RPGs. When we want to talk to her, we have to say her name mu

I have had a sumo stressful week! Things have been going on with one of my best frineds loving me, but I don't love him back... and he forced me to make a decision between him and a guy that I think I love, so naturally, I choose the other guy. Yesterday, I found out that the guy that I think I love is already going out with someone, so that gave me a big blow to the head, then today, more shocking news. I couldn't handle it, so I took a day off from school... I am still under a lot of pressure, and it's taking a toll. I'm snappy, cranky, and I don't sleep well at all anymore. I'm reeling with turmoil and it has to work itself out. I'm in sh